What's worse is, you always think that EVERYTHING can be excused by saying "oh well, i'll think about it some other day" or "well it's just me", "oh i couldn't help it". Oh of course, of course! you're AN EFFING QUEEN RIGHT? you're more majestic and more royal than Queen Elizabeth and her family combined! of course you can be excused by waving things off and cheating people behind their backs multiple times!
Everything IS a choice. That you would choose to fuck up everything, and more literally than not, fuck everything in sight shows who you are, that you'd choose to do that so willingly, and without remorse, shows the kind of person you are. That you keep using those excuses means that you don't care for people at all and would rather escape from your problems as if every single relationship is fleeting and so transitory. You say you cared for people but you don't. You end up using people more!
CHANGE THINGS, get a grip of yourself! :/